12/31/08 - Waiting for Tonight - Changes Scene - and Seen

I should be depressed, But I am very happy.
Times should be bad, But I am far more solvent now than before.
My friends should feel bad for me, but I have more friends now than ever.
The energy should have left me, I should be a couch potato
But I am still energetic and I work out very regularly now.
People have never been more down and going through it
but now is the time for more growth and change for the better.

I will try the best to do my part. I have a lot on my plate for sure.
But I cannot just let it go to waste.
The time and energy and imagination I have now,
I may never have again.

So with all of that said. Please recognize that my weekends won't change (much)
but my weekdays will be full of work that is more towards my goals, my dreams
and making sure that some of the things are finished now while there is still time.
Time enough for the rest of my life to happen for the rest of my life.

The time for me to do and learn and be the best me ever.
That's today.

My friends will see it too.
Enjoy
and Learn..

I'll still be there for my friends too.

12/24 - 12/28 - Waiting for the last day/night of the year.

So many events going on, so many separate happenings with friends and the weather has been all over the place as well.

I wonder sometimes why everyone else thinks everything in just THEIR life is getting worse and they cannot see a way past their current issues. Yes, even I have my own issues too. But I try not to burden anyone with my problems. They cannot change what I must go through. They cannot make anything different for me. A lot of people depend upon me to be the source of light and energy when they want to hang with me and I have no problem being there and making sure my friends will enjoy themselves and any problems that they have are no fault of my own. When the night comes I will be there for them and for the party.

One thing I have taken into myself and believe is what they say at the parties in Canada, that "The Party Needs You".

This means I do not do anything to take myself away from the party, such as dangerous drugs or combinations of drinking/drugs that would be dangerous to me in any shape or fashion. Some people think they are having a great time while drinking so much they are incoherent or have no memory of exactly whom they are talking to. That is not my idea of a good time, a good part or even close to anything of the sort.

"The Party Needs You" also means that when I go I make sure I add and not detract from the good time. I am there for my friends, I meet new people and I make sure my friends are having a good time. All has been well. So far.

Again I don't know what the new year will bring and I don't know if everyone will stay happy doing what they do. I will do my best to stay with what I know. I will not overextend myself, I will not damage myself or my future for the cause of having fun or a good time.

Also, I will not be a crutch on the lives that others choose to live. If they need to stop and take stock in their lives I support them in that. I know what I am capable of, what I have worked for and what I live for.

Times are hard all over the world. But so far I know I will do OK and that new things await all of us in the coming year. Until next time.

Peace and Love
And Much Fun in the New Year

Gym
G Lounge
Splash

The Cold Wind Blows, But All remains Unfrozen..

I finished as least the Lounge CD before the weekend and was able to give out bunches.
All bartenders of mine received their shirt gifts and I am happy that is over with.

I have paid all of my bills and am waiting for the end of the month to arrive. Things are moving at a normal pace but we still wonder what lies ahead. Something new and exciting for sure. My new To Do list on GMail is working great as well. Reminding me to do things and making me feel all accomplished when I finish my tasks.

There will be interesting times ahead I am sure. We will see how it goes.

12/12-12/13/08 - Weekend Quotes - From usual suspects

"They grow up so fast" - Splash Fri 12/12 - Said to Dougie and then by Dougie - regarding Brent Everett on stage at Splash Friday Night.

"I'm writing songs in my sleep" - Thursday 12/11

*I may be a ho, but I'm not a crack ho* - Cops on FOX - Sat. 12/13

"I thought she was the other one, Oh yes she is the one that Drinks" Sat Nite
Mr Black.

Sat Night - After finding a drunk soul at the ATM and retrieving Security.
Security Response - "What the F*ck!? - Why does this always happen?"
Upon coming to the ATM and finding the guy
with his pants falling down showing blue and white horizontally striped briefs.

As usual, I made it through the weekend alive.

12/8 - For now, I know of what I speak..

Sometimes we overextend and work it like it never breaks.
Sometimes we go all the way till the end, no matter what it takes.
I have felt hot, I've felt cold,
I've gone up some long roads

Just when you think you have seen and done it all
You go and add your internet connectivity and have a ball.
There is never enough time in the day, there is never enough fun in the night
I look over at the mirror at myself and I still know that I am right

The fun times they come again because of what I know
There is always more preparation and fun times to go.
Don't think I believe for once that I can do this forever
But I know what I can do, stay particularly clever.
Friends go and arrive and go with you there
I want to know people, I do want to care
I think I have time until the days get too short
There is always something new to do, some new and happy report.

For now, there is always the weekend.
My friend until the end.

Thursday
Gym
G Lounge
Splash

Friday
Gym
G Lounge
Splash

Saturday
Splash

Sunday (just this once)
Cielo
To see Peter open for Offer Nissim and get my release CD.
(Yay!)

Announcement of Future Intent

People usually know how to have fun. We hang out, we listen to music, we have drinks, we talk, we laugh, we usually have a good time.

Some people know not what they do. Sometimes they drink too much, sometimes they have a bad reaction, sometimes they say the wrong thing. I cannot expect everyone to take things to the level of exactitude and professionalism that I bring to my good time. I cannot expect people not to look like fools when they are overwhelmed by whatever poison of choice they have chosen to let take them over.

I cannot let myself be dragged down by these situations. I refuse to let my good times be diluted and broken down until they are mere shadows of the good times I expect.

I have stated to myself that I will not embarrass or forget to think of other peoples feelings when I state myself for the record where people can be recognized online. I will however refuse to put myself in the same position to have a bad situation be put on repeat. People should know that I try not to make the same mistake twice. I study where the situation skewed from the ideal and I then take steps to make sure the skew is forever not repeated.

Sometimes you say never again and you mean it, sometimes despite all of your preparation it happens to yourself and those around you. However if it happens to those who are around you then you can stop it from happening again by removing those catalysts of a downward facing evening. I have tried to be nice and accepting of faults and weaknesses but maybe it is just my own weakness of being too nice. Some people are not deserving of that constant outpouring of kindness. They just take the kindness in and have it flow back empty. I will not feed into the negative but I will take the positive and direct it where it will have the most good, towards me and mine and the ones who need it and appreciate from whence it came.

I will be nice
but not that nice.

And I will not let other people ruin my evening, overnight and early morning. If they can't handle the truth I will not tell them in so many words. But they will be removed from the vicinity of my good time and I will forge on ahead with a head held high and much hope for my future. A future with less drama, less drunkenness and definitely less outright stupidity.

I deserve better, I will have it.
There is no reason why not.
And I have it within my power to make it so.