Announcement of Future Intent

People usually know how to have fun. We hang out, we listen to music, we have drinks, we talk, we laugh, we usually have a good time.

Some people know not what they do. Sometimes they drink too much, sometimes they have a bad reaction, sometimes they say the wrong thing. I cannot expect everyone to take things to the level of exactitude and professionalism that I bring to my good time. I cannot expect people not to look like fools when they are overwhelmed by whatever poison of choice they have chosen to let take them over.

I cannot let myself be dragged down by these situations. I refuse to let my good times be diluted and broken down until they are mere shadows of the good times I expect.

I have stated to myself that I will not embarrass or forget to think of other peoples feelings when I state myself for the record where people can be recognized online. I will however refuse to put myself in the same position to have a bad situation be put on repeat. People should know that I try not to make the same mistake twice. I study where the situation skewed from the ideal and I then take steps to make sure the skew is forever not repeated.

Sometimes you say never again and you mean it, sometimes despite all of your preparation it happens to yourself and those around you. However if it happens to those who are around you then you can stop it from happening again by removing those catalysts of a downward facing evening. I have tried to be nice and accepting of faults and weaknesses but maybe it is just my own weakness of being too nice. Some people are not deserving of that constant outpouring of kindness. They just take the kindness in and have it flow back empty. I will not feed into the negative but I will take the positive and direct it where it will have the most good, towards me and mine and the ones who need it and appreciate from whence it came.

I will be nice
but not that nice.

And I will not let other people ruin my evening, overnight and early morning. If they can't handle the truth I will not tell them in so many words. But they will be removed from the vicinity of my good time and I will forge on ahead with a head held high and much hope for my future. A future with less drama, less drunkenness and definitely less outright stupidity.

I deserve better, I will have it.
There is no reason why not.
And I have it within my power to make it so.