1/06/09 - Awake and Waiting

This insomnia (waking up before dawn and laying there for 2 hours is insomnia for sureness) is annoying but I am sure If I plan my caffeine schedule, and or take some sleep meds sparingly I can be ready for bed at a reasonable hour more than once or twice a week.

I think it is just I have so much on my mind, both in my life and creatively that I have to get them all done before I can finally sleep and sleep well.

I have books to write, vacation plans to make, bills to pay, and my desktop PC that I use to make music and burn CDs finally gave up the ghost (boot sector with funky symbols). The Desktop PC and the bills will be handled in due time. But I really have to sit down and write the books and stories and any music in my head will be focused on when I get the new PC.
(Thank Goodness for the Mac laptop and the backup External). If I did not have the access I do to the information world and my online friends I would be highly upset. But since I have the high-speed cable, the laptop in the living room and the big TV to watch at the same time, all is still well.

Last weekend was a lot. New Years meant that the weekend started early. Wednesday Night watching Amber and Zelma Davis perform, well as a trip to Roseland Ballroom with the New Years detritus of Times Square still blowing as I ran to the club. I hung out with Marta and saw Joon before I had to head home before I fell asleep on my feet. I even went out Thursday Night with Dwayne and danced until 4am and took a taxi home. I had a lot of fun two days in a row but decided to take Friday off to rest and recover. (Sorry Mo.) Saturday was spent shopping in NJ where the taxes were low and the selection was nice. After a late afternoon nap I was ready to jump into my Saturday Night with both feet. With Russ and The Jimmy both off to G Lounge I headed over to GymBar myself and hung out for a bit with Ty, Ben and DJ Colin. I headed over to Splash around 12:30 and hung out with Dwayne for a bit before dancing both upstairs and down with DJ Hex Hector upstairs and DJ Danny Echi downstairs. I got the phone call from Russ to leave and meet at 4pm to head back to Brooklyn so I retrieved my wrap and made my way back to Bklyn after a stop for pizza. I was overtired and not at my best on the way home but eventually I was able to fall asleep and awake to a lazy Sunday.

The days are starting to get longer again, but there is still plenty of Winter to deal with before the warm comes again. I do need to be a little more regimented in my scheduling and planning and remember to take my vitamins. All that I do requires me to be on point for many days and many nights and I need all of the help that I can get. This insomnia is getting in the way. I need to get past it and get all of the spots worked out. At least my new friend the Homedics Shiatsu Pillow is keeping me from getting too tense.

My problem may be is I am still waiting for everything to be done and finished, All the writing, all the waiting, All the things I have yet to do. I have frittered away the time watching movies on cable but this is the season when that is not as much fun as well so thankfully it is forcing me to do the other things that need to be done.

I know I will do it all eventually, but I guess it will have to be soon. One never knows what will happen next.

12/31/08 - Waiting for Tonight - Changes Scene - and Seen

I should be depressed, But I am very happy.
Times should be bad, But I am far more solvent now than before.
My friends should feel bad for me, but I have more friends now than ever.
The energy should have left me, I should be a couch potato
But I am still energetic and I work out very regularly now.
People have never been more down and going through it
but now is the time for more growth and change for the better.

I will try the best to do my part. I have a lot on my plate for sure.
But I cannot just let it go to waste.
The time and energy and imagination I have now,
I may never have again.

So with all of that said. Please recognize that my weekends won't change (much)
but my weekdays will be full of work that is more towards my goals, my dreams
and making sure that some of the things are finished now while there is still time.
Time enough for the rest of my life to happen for the rest of my life.

The time for me to do and learn and be the best me ever.
That's today.

My friends will see it too.
Enjoy
and Learn..

I'll still be there for my friends too.

12/24 - 12/28 - Waiting for the last day/night of the year.

So many events going on, so many separate happenings with friends and the weather has been all over the place as well.

I wonder sometimes why everyone else thinks everything in just THEIR life is getting worse and they cannot see a way past their current issues. Yes, even I have my own issues too. But I try not to burden anyone with my problems. They cannot change what I must go through. They cannot make anything different for me. A lot of people depend upon me to be the source of light and energy when they want to hang with me and I have no problem being there and making sure my friends will enjoy themselves and any problems that they have are no fault of my own. When the night comes I will be there for them and for the party.

One thing I have taken into myself and believe is what they say at the parties in Canada, that "The Party Needs You".

This means I do not do anything to take myself away from the party, such as dangerous drugs or combinations of drinking/drugs that would be dangerous to me in any shape or fashion. Some people think they are having a great time while drinking so much they are incoherent or have no memory of exactly whom they are talking to. That is not my idea of a good time, a good part or even close to anything of the sort.

"The Party Needs You" also means that when I go I make sure I add and not detract from the good time. I am there for my friends, I meet new people and I make sure my friends are having a good time. All has been well. So far.

Again I don't know what the new year will bring and I don't know if everyone will stay happy doing what they do. I will do my best to stay with what I know. I will not overextend myself, I will not damage myself or my future for the cause of having fun or a good time.

Also, I will not be a crutch on the lives that others choose to live. If they need to stop and take stock in their lives I support them in that. I know what I am capable of, what I have worked for and what I live for.

Times are hard all over the world. But so far I know I will do OK and that new things await all of us in the coming year. Until next time.

Peace and Love
And Much Fun in the New Year

Gym
G Lounge
Splash

The Cold Wind Blows, But All remains Unfrozen..

I finished as least the Lounge CD before the weekend and was able to give out bunches.
All bartenders of mine received their shirt gifts and I am happy that is over with.

I have paid all of my bills and am waiting for the end of the month to arrive. Things are moving at a normal pace but we still wonder what lies ahead. Something new and exciting for sure. My new To Do list on GMail is working great as well. Reminding me to do things and making me feel all accomplished when I finish my tasks.

There will be interesting times ahead I am sure. We will see how it goes.

12/12-12/13/08 - Weekend Quotes - From usual suspects

"They grow up so fast" - Splash Fri 12/12 - Said to Dougie and then by Dougie - regarding Brent Everett on stage at Splash Friday Night.

"I'm writing songs in my sleep" - Thursday 12/11

*I may be a ho, but I'm not a crack ho* - Cops on FOX - Sat. 12/13

"I thought she was the other one, Oh yes she is the one that Drinks" Sat Nite
Mr Black.

Sat Night - After finding a drunk soul at the ATM and retrieving Security.
Security Response - "What the F*ck!? - Why does this always happen?"
Upon coming to the ATM and finding the guy
with his pants falling down showing blue and white horizontally striped briefs.

As usual, I made it through the weekend alive.

12/8 - For now, I know of what I speak..

Sometimes we overextend and work it like it never breaks.
Sometimes we go all the way till the end, no matter what it takes.
I have felt hot, I've felt cold,
I've gone up some long roads

Just when you think you have seen and done it all
You go and add your internet connectivity and have a ball.
There is never enough time in the day, there is never enough fun in the night
I look over at the mirror at myself and I still know that I am right

The fun times they come again because of what I know
There is always more preparation and fun times to go.
Don't think I believe for once that I can do this forever
But I know what I can do, stay particularly clever.
Friends go and arrive and go with you there
I want to know people, I do want to care
I think I have time until the days get too short
There is always something new to do, some new and happy report.

For now, there is always the weekend.
My friend until the end.

Thursday
Gym
G Lounge
Splash

Friday
Gym
G Lounge
Splash

Saturday
Splash

Sunday (just this once)
Cielo
To see Peter open for Offer Nissim and get my release CD.
(Yay!)