6-11-10 - And Then We Must Ask. Why Man Babies. Why?

Why is it when people do not get what they want they must revert to the most childish moments of their lives and start to call people names. These same people who have up to that point, guided them through the most interesting and enlightening parts of the night of their simple life up till this point. This appears to be especially true for the tourist who thinks they are coming to New York and know it all, done it all, and can teach a city person a thing or to.

But then when the city person (or people) do not act like they do on reality television then that city person must be lacking in personality, or realness, or are too jaded to relate to “real” people who happened to crawl out of the depths of the middle of nowhere.

Excuse me but if there were lessons to be learned by living in the middle of nowhere then everyone would be flocking in that direction instead of the opposite of what they do right now and yesterday (and tomorrow). I can do my best to be nice, to show a person a good time, (and their twin sister), and even treat the person to food at the all night bakery. But when someone insists on projecting their own insecurities on the new city people they just met, just because they didn’t get their way, and start to denigrate those same friendly city folk they met, then that is when their own immaturity is brought to light. Projecting petty insecurities and unmet desires on people who only were only trying to be nice is a sad way to go through life silly sonny.

I take notice and realize what a wasted effort it was to try and pull their personality out of the tar pit it was stuck in. I thought I met someone who wanted to learn something, who just before had been asking good questions, and not a been there/done that know-it-all old man in a man-baby's body. I thought I met someone who could be cool, not a prima donna. But as they say time and time again: You cannot make a country mouse into a city mouse. Even if the country mouse is big in their own borough of the hamlet. They just do not compare to the complexity of the mindset of someone who lives, breathes and watches the tourist personality come and go like the tides. I guess (and know) I would do better to devote my energy to those more mature ones, instead of burning through energy trying to save those who are not ready to be pulled onto the raft of reason. The ones who must stay adrift and just attract the sharks and other scavengers before they are ready to face the reality of their situation. And maybe then finally do what must be done. To Grow Up.

Not really sorry that I am sounding "jaded" myself for writing this but I guess I deserve what I get when I try to hang out with the traveling and immature.

As I visited:
Gym Splash

5-13-10 - Much to do Much to Do

Music and Writing has been keeping me busy. Developed a new storyline (The Royals), made some new mixes, and started releasing some of the mixes digitally. With digital distribution my friends from all over have gotten to hear some of my latest as well as some of the greatest hits.

At first I just posted the mix to mediafire so I could post them to my Facebook. But after they were popular with my FB friends I decided I also wanted to share with my Plurk friends which led to having some new fans cross country and around the world.

Being busy with music and with writing is not the worst thing. I will just have to endeavor to focus and not let the video games, Discovery Channel, Cartoon Network and DVR programming distract me too much. And also stay healthy and enjoy my friends. I will be doing my best. And along with some grand personal realizations in the past few weeks, I will be spinning even more plates in the air than before. But I do my best work under pressure. Let the show begin.

Thanks friends at
Gym G Lounge Splash
we look forward to much fun soon, and of course today

3-3-10 - Break

I was so right, So right
Thought I could turn emotion
On and off
I was so sure, So sure (I was so sure)
But love taught me
Who was who was who was the boss

- Diana Ross - The Boss

I think maybe I was blocked. Mental block. Blockage of the spirit. Stuck in a rut. I was so busy feeling everything and being brought to tears living vicariously through the drama (both televised and real life) that I wasn’t feeling my own feelings.  I wasn’t being honest with myself.  I was skipping past things I needed to stop and remain in.  When I stopped and noticed the realization was crystal for me.  I needed to express, I needed to vent, I needed to have a breakthrough.

I also noticed that some people have treated me with kid gloves. As if I was the most fragile of eggshell vases and could no longer tolerate being handled by normal people.  I am a social person. So when one group of friends seemed to have vanished into the ether I had thankfully already replaced them with friends of my own choosing. Friends who have been there the whole time and have seen me stumble forward, going through the motions and just let me be myself with no apologies or kid gloves necessary.  I may have been emotionally stunted, always positive yet one-dimensional but that was what I needed to be. The depressing alternative would not have been any fun to be around and since I require the social it was a self-fulfillment that I had to be the life of the party to have fun at the party.  But again, I wasn’t allowing myself to really process and feel what I needed to feel. 

I think I have started to do that now.  I realize I still may have to take out some more moments for myself and so I will.  It is very easy to be your own worst enemy. I’d rather be my own best friend.

Still trying to do new things, having a good time when I can and being with the friends who will have me.  All that is required is good drinks and good music. The rest will to fall into place as necessary.    

Thanks Friends and new friends all the time:
Gym

1-25-10 - So Kreative…

A Blog Meme, that I liked because its all about spreading information. And because everybody likes a good meme. 7 things to do.

This meme comes with 7 strict rules that I had to obey.

1. Thanks Dyl in the UK for letting me know you liked what you read enough to mention me.

2. Copy the Award Logo and place it In your blog













3. Link to the person who nominated you

Please go visit Dyl at Gecko Echo

4. Name 7 things about you that people might find interesting

a. I was a virgin till I was 25. Then oil was struck, the well was tapped and the west was won.
b. I used to collect comics. I have them bagged and in boxes in my closet. I stopped collecting comics when I realized I was spending between $75-100 a month and I decided I needed the money for other things. Like drinks.
c. I can type 60 words per minute,
d. I cut my own hair, myself, weekly.
d. I’m very much into future tech stuff. I want the future now. Since I can’t build a time machine and have tomorrow stuff now I guess I have to write about it.
f. I grew up very religious and though I still believe in a creator, I’m definitely not religious now. Unless you can find God in music.
g. Though I’m usually force for good, I know I would make a great super-villian.

5. Nominate 7 Kreativ Bloggers and post links to the 7 blogs you nominate.

I read a lot of blogs on a lot of topics but here are 7 that I think are Kreativ and worthy of mention.

Dyl at Gecko Echo who was one of the first blogs I followed when blogger gave me the option to follow blogs and know when they were updated.

Joe at Joe. My. God. because he is funny, I agree with him (usually) and he is very nice and down to earth in person.

Dlisted at Dlisted.combecause the site saves me from ever having any desire to read a tabloid and its just SO funny.

Andy Towle at Towleroad because its one of the first blogs I paid attention to regularly and always shows me something new. And some of the commenters are hilarious.

Bears in Games at Bears in Games
because otherwise I would not know about some of those games and they sound like fun or just sound funny.

Z at ZReveals. Another person who was very personable. And has a Humor that rings true to life.

Queerty.Com (Queerty) because just in case I miss hearing about something I can usually catch up on it there. And some of the articles are very thought provoking.

6. Someone before me forget to post rule 6
(Methinks this is just a way to force one to read a lot of new blogs to see if someone knows what number 6 is)

7. Leave a comment on each of the blogs letting them know they have been nominated.
Hmm. The ones who need to know will know.