1-16-10 - We can rebuild him… Better.. Stronger.. Faster

It’s been pretty cold but I dress for the best when I leave my house as I am not a fan of the frostbite (been mighty close to that and not planning on a repeat). My brushes with the cold when I was younger means I have bad circulation in my extremities. “Cold hands, Warm Heart” they say so maybe it’s not all bad. The weekend will be a little warmer so we will look forward to that.

I am liking the results after the second week of regular gym visits. I really had no excuse for not going and I totally know the benefits. A little caffeine (and I do mean a little, I don’t need the jittery) goes a long way to making sure I am up and ready to push through the entire workout. Especially with the elliptical ski/run machines. I even got complimented that I am starting to fill out again. I guess the bod was all going soft from disuse but was still there ready to be re-inflated. Muscle memory is a good thing. Nice.

Unexpected (by that I mean totally expected) side-effect of going to the gym 3x a week has been more predictable control of when I want to go to sleep. Meaning I don’t fall asleep at 7pm and wake up at 10pm just because I ate a nice dinner. I now can stay up after a big meal, finish out my evening at a pace of my choosing, reading, DVR review or whatever. Getting a nice uninterrupted 7½ to 8hrs of sleep is the true goodness. The long naps totally destroy my sleep cycle. My favorite has always been the 15 - 30 min nap. Which is almost like pushing the reset button. Having one long sleep is a luxury that I definitely am all over. Yes the sunlight still wakes me up, (even through the thick curtains and the blinds) but I can go right back to sleep. In the past, I had been using Valerian, or Ambien to go to sleep when I wanted/needed an assured rest but I would feel the effects the next day, with a lethargy that would persist. I am happy that now the desire to sleep is all mine, without the help of a few sips of Cabernet Sauvignon or any combination of pills.

I have tried to reduce my levels of stress to what I can bear. The stuff that I can control I will exercise that control. I dodged a bullet with regards to taking on too much of someone else’s issues and am happy with my final choice. Big thanks to the assistance of chaos working on my behalf to cause that issue to resolve itself before I closed the final door.

Yes I like to think that chaos theory is helpful when I am trying to be a force for good myself. Just being in the right place for the right time and saying or doing the right thing can totally change your outlook and your immediate future.

The long weekend brings choices and makes me continue to re-evaluate what is important. How and when I spend my time. Who with and where I spend it. And what am I doing it all for. I will endeavor to do better on the networking front, and make sure that people know just what my valuable traits are. The big picture is getting bigger all the time and I am seeing the sunrise of my new day with new eyes. A new way of looking at everything is right on the edge of my window to the world. I want to understand just what I still need to do to make everything else follow accordingly. I am still emotionally fragile, but am more resilient than before. The tears are there for more happy things than the sad things. Like when I am watching DVR programming. (Thank goodness I don't watch Lifetime) It's good to feel.

I know it won’t all be nice, neat and orderly. I know I won’t be understanding the meaning of life anytime soon. (Well, maybe, LOL) But I definitely will not sit back and refuse to take part because things are too hard or I don’t see where the end of the road is. If I don't go all out now there is no backup to take my dreams and run with them. There is no 2 extra lives or a 1-up waiting for me if I do this wrong. So I will make this the chance I’ve been setup to take advantage of my whole life. Ready, Aim, and I will be on Fire..

Thanks again to all my friends and hangout buddies.
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