Sometimes laid back is taken too far.
But at least no harm has been done, no fouls committed.
I will endeavor to be more motivated as the summer continues and winds down. I don't want the first day of Autumn to roll in and I'm wondering "where did it all go?". I will admit I've done some fun things, discovered some interesting things (about myself and others) and have decided some new things as well.
We've traveled, hung out, danced, created new music CDs, and created new storylines for the books underway. But while I have accused other people of losing their focus and doing too much at once, I have been guilty of the same traps myself. I have tried to do too much and have ended up doing very little. The only thing I have been really good at is hanging out and being there for my friends. The week must be better spent in moving my other tasks forward and not letting them fall by the wayside and being neglected. In terms of organization I think I will let the week be more about the writing and the weekend to be more about the music. Lack of focus has made everything sort of hazy.
I think the time has come for me to share with more people what my summer goals are and let them give me the encouragement for a change.
I know I have tried to be self-sufficient and do all of the pushing internally but there comes a time when I must realize that I need outside uplifting along with the internal. I wouldn't want to go dancing at a club where I was the only one dancing.. so too I don't want to be the only one pushing myself forward and through to the conclusion of my many projects. This is a once in a lifetime opportunity and I am kind of letting it fall to the ground like autumn leaves.
We can do better, and we will get by with a little help from our friends. We have done the hard part and made our friends. Now we must let go a little and let our friends be there for us too. No testing involved just nice reminders that we all need our goals reflected back at us.
No time like the present. No better day than now. No more waiting for tomorrow. We will start with today.
