05-28-09 - The Machine Poem - The Saga

Back in the Day when I did not know about scams (more on the ones that have touched my life another time,) I entered a poem that I had written for publishing in a book that would be cataloged in an annual compendium of poetry that would actually have a book # in the Library of Congress. Sounds too good to be true because.. It was.. They actually would use my poem in the book but in order to get a copy of said book I would have to pay $60 dollars for my copy. It was bad enough I had to edit my poem to fit within their word-count guidelines but then I was going to have to pay for a book full of poems I did not want just to see mine in published form. Seems the only reason the book existed was poor saps like me who gave them FREE poetry that I would then have to PAY for to get a copy of.

I told them that's alright, that was OK, I have a copy of my poem anyway.

So here from the way-back-when archives is the first time on the net copy of the poem..











The Machine

The machine worked hard both day and night
without a rest without any light
For a goal elusive, dark as night
That could not be reached try as hard as it might

This hardship went on as the years went by.
Not a day would pass that the weary it did try.
As hard as it tried as hard as it worked
Nothing would come of it, just pain and hurt.

A new year arrived and a new program inserted.
A new type of role, instructions were worded.
This new pace was better for within and without
but it did not last long, this new circumstance found.

Cast adrift and with nothing the machine still would dream
of an everlasting role, an end to the toil and steam
In the midst of all the turmoil, the trials and the stress.
A light arrowed down cutting through the darkness.

And out of the light did a dream dare emerge.
To the senses a fantasy made real on this earth.
The machine looked upon this and began to transform
Its tired and weary shape taking on a new form

Falling away from its sides were struggle and darkness
In the face of this light were all dreams reaching for this.
The dream stepped forth and smiled on the machine
The machine was mechanical no more but did feel and did breathe.

With a fresh teary eye and a new beating heart,
It reached out its hand and touched a work of art.
Enlightened from within, emboldened from without
It opened up its mouth and gave out a shout

The gladness poured forth and the dream it did listen
Made real here on earth among dew drops that glisten.
A new day shines forth now no longer for a machine
But for a smiling young man who has found his true dream.

Kind of flowery, but I still like it. It paints a nice picture and I can feel those words to this day. Nothing like a little adversity to make one wax poetic.

Life without adversity has no meaning and dies unhappy I'm sure.

5/27/09 - I Await The Night, I Live for the Day

Another weekend has passed.
More parties attended, More friends to hang with, music listened to, dances done, drinks downed and fun times for the ages.

I spent time making two of my summer series of Dance CDs (Brighter Liteness, Fly Some DisDance) and now have tunes for my upcoming vacation. The PC seems to have recovered from its hiccup two weekends ago and is doing what it is supposed to do. We now once again have Corel WordPerfect installed on the 2 Vista PCs in the house and can once again do fully featured Word Processing on the newest machines.

I have a lot to look forward to and if I allow it, the obstacles that distract one won't have too much of an effect. There is always something coming up, but I can usually tell that it's on the way so I prepare myself for the out of the way eventuality. Some of those are self-made, I need to spend my time wisely, and not just burn through the days as if I will always have more. The rest of those seem to be friends who feel I am the ghetto google, the one who knows and they distract me from my day to ask me obvious stuff. Like phone calls for times/places/when stuff is gonna go down, like I'm just plugged into the city pulse or something. Or expecting me to find obvious stuff fun and fulfilling. Just cause its cheap doesn't mean I'm all over it. I think maybe my being nice in the past makes them feel they have carte blanche to disturb my day and ask me for sheer randomness. Or ask me if I wanna go someplace new they know about because they had heard that it might include something interesting. Pay Attention, I already know what I find interesting. There is a reason I go places again and again, it's because I have fun and I am tired of going to places that are as fun as a roach bomb going off before the pilot light is shut off.

Some people think that one bad experience means they should never go back, some people believe that if they just find the right combination of place and time the light will come down from the heavens and they will see the light leading to the best time ever. I believe a good time takes some work from the participants too, so I make sure I am fully prepared and ready to go. Not to some random experience but I go where I know the fun is. There is no crime in wanting to enjoy the time I set aside for just that purpose.

Some people are trapped in make believe or depressing scenarios that only bad things will continue to happen (no one will call their number, they will never meet anybody, people just want their bodies and not their love) yes, for some reason I know a lot of those people. Most of them are fun and friendly but they can get into these selfish modes when they feel the fun is supposed to be all around/about them and that if they aren't having the fun they deserve they should tell me about it. I do my best to lift them up, point them in the right direction, and tell them it hasn't been so bad so far, but sometimes they want it too often and they start to be a downer on my good time. Now that is a no-no.

To all the peeps who believe that your bad time is supposed to pull me out of my good time, it's not gonna happen. To all the ones who feed off of my energy and only stick around for the (rare) free drinks, I know who you are, and I am not amused. There was once a time when I was just too nice for words. Now I am just having a good time and happy to show it, but do not believe the show is just for you. It's really more for me.

Places visited this past weekend
Gym
G Lounge
Splash
Eagle

Posted 5-15-09 - A Space For Me

A Space For Me

There is nothing I need no more than this
But to have my own space and private bliss
The chaos surrounds as I live and breathe
Yet clarity of purpose is what I see
Delve down to the depths of personality
To see what really moves down deep
No other life is known like this
No paths not taken journeys missed
All I have to live is now
I will succeed as I know how
An irresistible force am I
This life, My Love, and Boundless Sky

5-15-09 - Spring Forward and Don't Fall Back

Am enjoying the nice weather, going to the gym when able, and taking good care of myself. No misdemeanors committed or witnessed (I think). The days are getting longer and we have more and more things to. Even when there are enough hours in the day we still need the energy and drive to finish all the tasks that need doing.

Many thanks to friends for pointing me towards Scrivener for writing as it has helped to organize my disparate scribblings. I have started new verses on projects I haven't touched for over a year and am fleshing out more topics as they come to mind. Being productive is a good thing. But we do have to be even more aware of time management. I have been so aware of being unbusy that now when we have things to do it's hard to find the time to do it all. We make a list and we keep it going.

We are also readying the newest musical compilations and preparing the summer tracks so we have the appropriate soundtrack as we keep it movin (Pop, R&B, and Dance compilations).

Friends have been around and about and having fun as well. I will try to limit the hours in each outing in preparation for multi-day events coming up. Thank goodness for Orange juice and Diet 7-up and taking vitamins on the daily.

• Calcium - Strong Bones and Teeth (Duh) and proper muscle contraction

• Glucosamine - restoration of joints after heavy use

• Gingko - Circulation in extremities (gotta recover from that pre-teen frostbite)

• Milk Thistle - Filtration and upkeep of the Liver (we does throw back a few drinks sometimes)

• Amino Acids - rebuilding muscle tissue in a more bio available form than just meat

• Lysine - extra amino for keeping up immune system (and keeping the fever blisters away)

• EPA-DHA (Fish Oil) - I don't eat that much fatty fish, maintains the nervous system and HDL levels

and then the extra stuff

• DMAE - preservative (young look is in LOL), and I've heard the face cream is cool too
  

• ZMA - Zinc Magnesium Aspartate - for Immune system and strong bones

• Colostrum - immune support (we hates getting sick as much as the next one) building blocks for white blood cells and other things we need to fight the good fight
  

• Shark Cartilage - rebuilding the joints after the rigors and stresses of this past winter

We take even more stuff too but I don't wanna start a library . Yes we do keep the Vitamin Shoppe in business.

5/7/2009 - I Wonder Sometimes. And other Times I'm kinda Sure..

Spring allergy season has progressed true to form and I still catch myself having to remember to take my Claritin and Sudafed as needed to keep me from succumbing to the lethargy of closed nasal passages. There are times that we are too busy or we are distracted but I still find myself having to remember where my self fits into my care schedule. If I am not up and able to take care of my own business then I am no good in dealing with all of the busy stuff the world thrusts in my face at irregular intervals. I might have to put a sign next to my bed. (LOL)

The power of caffeine lets me do wonderful things (gym, dancing at all hours) but one cannot live by caffeine alone (the horror). Because of this and the aftereffects of the antihistamine along with the weekend imbibing we have to stay hydrated, so keeping up with the water filter and ready stores of Diet 7up and Diet Ginger Ale are a must.

My weekends have been good, I have done good for others and have had a fun time along the way. Thank goodness my temporary house guest arrangement has found somewhere else to dwell at this time. I will be the first one to admit that I myself have personal space issues in my own space and home but even 7 days was 7 days too long (really). I have nothing personal against any of my friends and may in the future extend that favor once again. However for now I always seem to have interesting things pop up when I am suddenly constrained in my modes of action and my home office is supposed to be my office and not a hotel or bed and breakfast. As such I need to be able to move with complete unimpeded access in my own house to go where I need to do work, find things, get books, and put stuff away. Of course if the room is being slept in on the regular that can't happen until they are out of the way, and that can't happen until they have someplace to go. I am happy that has happened for now. And I am glad I was able to talk and advise them on their little sojourn with me.

I am happy I had my weekends as my own and was only constrained slightly time-wise on those days. The little things are even more important when your day-to-day is interrupted. I have taken solace in cooking, and going to the gym and of course my weekend.

There is a lot to look forward to in the coming months and I will be doing my best to prepare accordingly. I am still there for my friends, but I have to be a friend to myself and my well being foremost. If I give until the giving is gone, I will just be left with the leftover and end up feeling that emptiness. Since we left the empty heart behind in the last century, I have no inkling to be a whipping post/dumping ground/beast of burden for anyone, or anything again anytime soon.

Thank Goodness for Love, Thank goodness for Friends, Thank Goodness for Fun.

The days are long the nights are steep but my promises made are mine to keep, the world is wide and so is the street, but I have plenty of time to sleep. Yes I will schedule when I sleep.

Shout Outs to my fave fun spots:
Gym
Splash
We are living for the three days of weeknight weekends for now. Until next time..