2/25/2009 - Things that I have Hmmm'd up...

Each day before you go to bed make sure you do something that you will be proud of
even if it's just making a list of what you will do the next day.

Always Smile when you meet someone new. It is easy and it can really make their day. Smiles are contagious too.

Tell your friends and loved ones how much they mean to you. You may think they now but people always need to hear that they are loved. If you want them to know you must tell them.

Make sure each day is a little different than the last. Each day should not only be different because of the name of the day. If you have to alternate doing things every other day then do that. Just don't fall into a rut. Keep it fresh.

Dress for the occasion but always with your own personal touch. If you care what you look like other people will care to notice. It starts with you.

I will add more stuff as I think of it..

I need to make more lists myself. Stuff I want to remember always and not just good for the moment..

If it is good enough for me it is good enough for me to write down. So I will.

2/24/2009 - What do you Want and When do you Want it?

We want it Now of Course..

We all have our moments when we are feeling kind of down. The world has come at us fast and we got slapped and we are like "What, Who just slapped Me." Even I can be overwhelmed when too much has happened at once. And these past few months, and past few weeks, yes, too much has happened at once..

So what is one to do when they are down and can't determine what to do next? We look for inspiration but where can it be found? We need energy but we are at our lowest tank ever. I never thought I would say it, but having a routine makes you know what comes next. When you don't know what comes next you end up filling your time with drivel, stuff that is not helping, stuff that keeps you feeling the same way. With your Inertia gone you tend to stay in the same place. I know this can happen and yet how do you get it rolling again? How can you get that energy and drive to change the world again?

First - Realize that your small input can make a difference. You do have something unique to offer. You have more fun times ahead of you. Dreams that Must be made real.

Second - If you have spent enough time giving good energy out to the universe, your friends, your neighbors, then that good energy is waiting to flow back to you. If you have been there for the party, then the party needs you.

Third - You must watch and surround yourself with uplifting stuff. Happy movies, Happy shows, Happy friends, all of these will in turn make you happy. If you are constantly learning new things then you can constantly be sharing these new things with your friends.

I just know if I watch boring drivel then I will be boring and leak drivel. If I am watching people make things, invent things, do things and they are growing and doing more, then I know I can do more too.

Chaos theory means If I put myself in the right place I will be there at the right time. When opportunity meets preparation then good things can happen. I will move forward only if I continue to move. If I just sit and am mad at what has happened, then I will continue to sit. Even moving backward isn't so bad if the pendulum is ready to swing forward again.

I need to be there on the upswing and will take steps to make sure my own personal sabotagers are held in check. If you think long and hard enough You know where the badness comes from in your life so protect yourself from it. We all have things that pull us backwards and we have to do what we can to show we can grow and get the negative out of our life. Not saying we cut off our friends or family but at the same time we do not give them carte blanche to cut us down and do us wrong. The negative will be stopped before they go too far and the attacks redirected to where they do the least harm. I know I have a lot to look forward to, and a lot left to do.

We start moving forward today.

2/24/09 - Want the Weekend..

This past weekend was great, I have my legs at good capability again and am ready for gym level workouts soon. The cold season seems to have finally let me be and stop afflicting me with attack after attack. I met new friends, hung out with old friends and had a very friend filled weekend.

Thursday we went to Gymbar and hung out with Ty, Stephan K, and met Ron. Thursday night night continued with the throngs and crowds at Splash who flock their on Thursdays to hear hot dance beats upstairs and hot R&B and Pop beats downstairs. The bar back staff has done much better keeping it clean and the security has been controlling the peeps who stay in the bathroom too long. At Splash I hung out with Tres, Edn and Rob and they were nice enough to give me a ride back to BK.

Friday we met up with Joseph and headed from Gym Bar uptown to The Eagle and heard the DJ lay down some cool beats before it was time to head cross town to Mr. Black and do some more dancing. I saw Rob n Tres there also moving to the beats before I said goodnight to everyone and got a car right in front to bring me back to BK. So convenient.

Saturday we shopped, made sure there was enough soda in the house before resting up for the nightfall. I texted the buds to make sure everyone was where they said they would be and then we headed into the city riding in the Murano. After looping around looking for parking we headed into gym bar and dealt with the Saturday crowds, DJ Dr Brooks said hello to Russ, We all said hi to Craig and Steve and the Birthday crowd downstairs had DJ Colin playing *Milkshake* and had us grooving for sure. Once Ron showed up we said our goodbyes to the crowd and then headed over to Splash. I showed him how when the coat check was long I made sure I had a drink first. It made me much more calm, cool and collected while waiting to check my coat. (Email was sent to complain) Beyond that the party was hopping with DJ Tracy Young and Rick and Shawn were there and hangin too. I stayed there dancing and having a grand old time until 4:30am when I headed over to Mickey Ds and had myself a Big Mac before heading home. The taxi ride was pristine and even Russ and the Jimmy got a taxi ride leaving the Murano in the city for pickup on Sunday..

Sunday was all about the resting, The Taxi ride into the city to get the Murano, and more listening to the the newest R&B Rap CD *Driving While Winter* (Me likey the new CD). And even ordered Atomic Wings for Dinner. Nice Calamari by the way. And then was time to relax..

Go Weekend..

2/19/09 - Many Days in the Middle

If it isn't something then it's another. My legs are in recovery (no treadmill anytime soon but maybe 2 weeks) but I have been able to walk long distances and have a lot of fun with no real pains. I think I will keep them wrapped up another weekend just to keep them warm, the cold does strange things to stretched tendons...

Last weekend I went into that strange limbo which was going out two days in a row with 1 or no friends known to be there beforehand. Thursday was pretty much as usual, with Friday a very good but more expensive day going to Splash after Gym. I met Bianca Del Rio up close on Thursday at Splash and Friday I met up with Dwayne and Joseph and saw Rick and Sean at Splash. Saturday I met up with Dwayne at Splash and hung out a bit with Rogger and DJ Danny Echi until after 4am.

Sunday was the adventurous day when I headed out to Club Arena for the Asseteria party. It was my first time in the space and despite the door and short wait the place was packed. MC Anthony Lamont (the man in the dress with the goatee) was great. The music was good for a mixed club and I did hang with DJ Sean and Ira who later headed over to Pacha. At 4:30 even though the music was better as the time passed, the expensive beers had caught up with me and I just wanted to go home. I did not even wait on the line at Mickey D's but headed back out took a train and got all the way home.

Early in the week I was upset with a lot of things and ready for frustrating health things just to end and go away. From things in my face to things in my legs. At least I have remembered to stretch my back every day. No reason to have a back spasm again any time soon. A well oiled machine but with so many moving parts we are bound to have issues sometime. The parts that annoy me the most are the ones that are caused by other people like colds. You wash your hands constantly, have soap in your pocket at all times and you can still be undone by one kiss or one close hug. With all the stresses I have had to deal with lately I am just waiting for the next thing to come rolling along. However I am better prepared than most, have fully extended all landing gear and am ready to land and take off again at any time.

I really want to get back to writing but have been distracted by books, video games and getting sick. I think I will do better next week. But don't want to keep putting this off. The month is almost over. This weekend I will do more with my music. And the week will be back on the books. It seems so easy once you start, but the problem is getting started at all...

Soon then, Promise yourself, We will make it real...

2/11/09 - Thank Goodness for the Water Landing..

As I sit and watch David Letterman and the crew from the plane that landed in the Hudson River I am happy for them and everyone that made it through OK. I am glad I have not had to go through such an experience. However, I have been hit by a car, I have knocked myself unconscious flying through the air into a concrete wall, I have hurt my knee learning to skate and have caught the flu more than once. There is always something that can happen. I think I have done good to minimize the bad occurrences but something new can always surprise you.

I have decided that I need to make sure to take my vitamins and stretch everyday. These spasms due to whatever they are due to is getting on my nerves. I am too young to be acting arthritic but I will be sure to ask when I go to my doctor for the checkup. Maybe it's because my schedule is so out of tune that my body is out of tune as well. As much as I try to keep a schedule I can't seem to get to sleep when I want to nor can I get everything I want to have done when I need it. Thank goodness for more time and chances for do overs. Of course that does not last forever.

Back spasms and bum knees (both of them) I might as well be pushing 70. I know I have put on the front of invulnerability and miles of strength for world to see but my energy and the reserves that I have to help everyone are being stretched (like my back) and I wish everyone did not have so many problems to deal with. We all have our share and we have the choice when faced with the trial to meet it head on or hide in the corner. I don't want to hide cause I want to see what happens next. I hate not knowing what happens. I want to be there, I want to set it off, I want to dance in the middle of the floor and act like I don't ever want to go home. I want to run down the streets and people not think I robbed someone. I want to remember If I forgot something and not have to spend unnecessary funds to make it right.

The world changes so fast and I want to be there to take pictures.

Last weekend was great, I celebrated on Saturday Night with the guys and rested on Sunday and had a visit from Maurice where we discussed summer plans and music and upcoming events. Russ made sure late lunch of brick oven pizza was picked up and and was well and good.

Over the weekend till now I did not do any further damage to myself and I am recovering from my flu symptoms nicely.. I would say I am at 80-85% of my normal output and capabilities right now except for residual coughing (post nasal drip damn you to hell) and the need to keep my spine supported properly while moving around, cleaning, and making sure what needs to be done gets done. I missed the gym today but will definitely shoot for tomorrow.

I need to wake up and have these issues handled. I guess one can only hope.

Thanks to Thursday Night and Saturday Night at
Gym
And
Splash

2/03/09 - The Lethargy, The Apathy, Where is the Fire?

Wednesday rolls in and the sun was strong. I need to keep up the momentum with my gym workouts and writing and music. It is so hard to maintain everything I need to do. I may end up going to my 24 hour gym at strange hours because I seem to only have the focus and drive when the nighttime rolls around.

I know I only have but so much time but I still could not get beyond my immediate area today. Falling asleep when you are supposed to be going to the gym is not the move. But tomorrow is another day and I am sure I can do better. I started the second chapter of the horror novel and finished the chapter title list as well. Writing is not hard once we get the ball rolling but it's finding the ball and putting it into place to roll we have a problem with.

I am not sure what else I can do to motivate myself, besides having a timetable for completion. I need to have something to show for it by the end of this month, as far as needing means that I will feel as if my time has been well spent and not thrown away. We will see as time goes by what dreams do come, to me and mine and friends far and wide... I want too much and not enough at different intervals it seems.. If only..

2/3/09 - Back to Level - Next Stop, Super..

What to do at the end of the week. We wrap ourselves up make sure we eat and hydrate and prepare to go out and about. Russ and the Jimmy wanted to go to G Lounge but we started out at GymBar on Saturday Night. Parked around the corner, dressed warm and headed into the bar. Coat checked downstairs and first drinks in hand, the crowd was impressive but not unruly and we said hello to Joseph, Ty and hung out with DJ Colin before it was time to head out. The guys went over to G Lounge, I headed over to Splash.

Doorman Derek waved me in and once past the cashiers it was down to the coatcheck and then up to the dancefloor of Splash. I met up with Dwayne as well as Shawn and Rick and between drinks (start with a Bud Lite), great music by DJ Alexander, saying hello to DJ Sean and stopping downstairs to say hi to DJ Danny Echi it was a pretty busy night. High point of course at 3:45 am dancing to 'Burnin Up' by Cevin Fisher but being newly back up and about I could not burn myself out in one night. I made sure I knew where the guys were and I headed back to the vehicle. Leaving early for me but I had stuff to do the next day. More cleaning and cooking.

I woke up to delivery breakfast bacon and eggs, caught up on the news then finalized the vacuuming and clean up before starting to cook right before 4pm. The chicken came out great, the macaroni salad was great also, The macaroni and cheese was too salty (sea salt was saltier than I expected) but passable and the regular salad was ok despite being made by Russ without asking. Donnie, Steve, Solomon, the Jimmy all enjoyed the food, as well as the clean house and we all watched a very good Super Bowl. After that we watched the Office. The rest of the night was uneventful but I was happy for the weekend. I'll see what happens next. Good times are coming..