1/13/2009 - The More You Do the More You Still Have to Do..

This affliction of insomnia has continued unabated. I now know I will just have to have two sleep periods every day until I need the alarm again.

Nevertheless, I really have nothing to complain about. I guess I was just expecting everything to fall into place at the beginning of the year and everything I planned did in fact happen as scheduled, it was just the unplanned that threw a monkey wrench into my complacency.

Just when I thought I was doing OK:
I found out that my PC Hard Drive can crash so bad it requires data recovery.
I find out that my credit cards are trying to charge me downright usurious fees
(that is put to a stop quickly, homey don't play that)
I still have to pay for future trip plans now before price goes up.
I have to find the time to workout before my in-shape goes to all-shot.
I have to get my big screen TV repaired (before the superbowl)

The usual drama,
Though I have conquered my weekend my real life is getting is getting more and upheaved and I don't know which is going to clear up first. I am not used to having so many different things beyond my control to deal with at once.

I need to follow my own advice:
Break the problems into little parts and deal with them one by one until they are all done.

I guess I really just need to allow myself the privilege of falling behind on some things while everything else seems hunky-dory. I broke away from a past life where my needs were secondary to the all-knowing cause and my effect was little and my happiness, low.

Now I am in as much control as I can muster there is nothing MORE I can do except put together the little puzzle that is my place in the grand plan. I cannot tell anyone what to do, least of all God, but I do know that He helps those that help themselves. I will not cry over spilt milk and I will not waste time letting my life fall by the wayside.

I will get my PC fixed, my TV fixed and I will plan for my future accordingly. I deserve to have some good times ahead. And in every life some rain must fall. I guess my April has come in January. I have my umbrella out and my coat is water proof. So I am as prepared as I can be. So come with it then. I will not be hurt by a little wet.