02-14-10 - IF U EVER

If you doubt there is love out there in the world

Look back at yourself and what love you deserve

So many are focused on only themselves

When they should be seeking out others to help

We all have our moments of weakness and doubt

But those self-important we can all do without

As much as you need and as much as give

One should not expect more than it takes just to live

We cannot expect tomorrow to come out today

We cannot just wish all of the hard times away

But we can do our part to make the days better

And help those who need it, ignoring them never

If I Never tell you so, just know that I care

If you ever feel the need, remember I will be there

If there ever is a time that you doubt what I say

Just open your mind and let those doubts fade away

2/8/10 - Kinda Super Sunday

Last year at this time I had a Super Bowl Party at my house. I cooked fried chicken, macaroni salad, lettuce and tomato salad, people came over and we watched the game (and the expensive commercials) on the 61in screen. The guests then had Entenmann’s cake for dessert.

Fast forward to a year later. No calls from friends for where the Super Bowl Party was this year. No needing to cook for a house full of people. I cooked dinner the day before and ate early. I brought along dessert (homemade oatmeal cookies) with me to the sports bar. And gave cookies to my friends. They might be a few different friends than the ones I hung out with last year but is all good.

If I wanted to have a party I would have sent out invites and waited for replies. But I guess I’m not in the mood to be the hostess with the mostest this year. Maybe it’s too soon. Maybe I needed a break. Maybe it’s time to make new traditions. Do new things. See how everyone else is having fun. I think I can do that.

I’m not upset at my friends who haven’t called. They have lives, they have things to do. As do I. At least I thought to send out a few text msgs at half-time and got some cool replies.  The game was good, some of the commercials were funny and all went well. And yes, it was fun. I had a really good time. The sportsbar was definitely the place to be to watch the game. The friends made it fun. New friends made it better. And I will remember smiles and laughing and looking forward to the next time.

Cause yes. There is always a next time.

Thanks for another fun time:
Gym SportsBar

2-1-10 - City Nights and Vampire Slaying

The weekend continued apace as usual. Friends, fun and cool drinks. The Varsity Party at Gym Bar with DJ JD on Friday followed by the F Word party at Rebel. Friends were there and a good time was definitely had. We recharged like a rehydrated sponge and met up with friends on Saturday night as well. Splash with DJ Brett Heinrichsen on Saturday Night. Bright lights, nice dancing. Plenty of people out in the city despite the cold and the beats were good.

The only out of place moment was after my Saturday night was over and I finished my Mickey Ds run at the 4am mark. I flagged down a taxi and got my ride headed back to the BK. The driver was super friendly, then he became creepy friendly and actually seemed like he was overly interested in my well being. Then after my point to point directions he drove past one of the final turns and took me past my block. I guess expecting me to become disoriented. Thankfully I know my neighborhood in all directions so was not at the least bit perturbed. I just had to be a little more pointed with my final directions to the front of my house then I gave him his fare and jumped out like I heard there were bedbugs in the backseat. Just when you relax for a moment (because my mind was all about the getting home to eat my Big Mac) you have driver who is asking to get your number for nefarious purposes. I guess I needed a reminder. There is a reason we wear kevlar lined leather gloves. So we can deal with the big bad city when we need to. Sometimes the strangeness is there to remind us that while we choose to live in the city we still have to be ready for whatever.

Sunday was all about the why wasn’t my internet working while my cable television was fine. Time Warner had an outage that the people on the phone could not provide details on. This meant that worldly connected me was cutoff. And yes this was highly upsetting. Thankfully my perusal of TV in the past week had gotten me addicted to watching Buffy episodes that were in rerun. Of course I have seasons 3 and seasons 7 on DVD so into the PS3 those discs went and I found myself watching episode after episode. Reliving the good times when I used to watch the show religiously back at the turn of the century. All my friends and close associates knew I was addicted to Buffy. I was sad when it went off the off the air but it ended on a high note so all was good. . At the same time re-watching the episodes had me going from happy to sad back and forth because I used to watch the show with someone else. Someone who I can’t watch the show with anymore. They liked the show because of me and liked watching all of my reactions. Yes I scream and laugh at all of the appropriate parts This also means that all the parts that made me smile also made me a little sad. The best good times I remember and still have are good times shared. I guess it will be like this for a while. But I can’t stop having fun because of flashbacks to the fun I used to have. The sadness moments are farther apart but they still come. Here’s to a future with more shared fun moments. And fun moments alone. I do appreciate both kinds after all.

Always the perfect start to the night, friends and fun
Gym

Usually good Thursday Night, almost always great Saturday Night
Splash